Unashamed.

Yesterday as I was bathing Chloe, I realized that she was completely unashamed about being buck-naked in front of me. This may come as no surprise to you (as babies are supposed to love baths), but it struck me and made me think. As I sat there watching her chill in her little tub, I realized that she is completely unabashed about everything with Jeremy and me. She has no qualms in letting us know when she is happy, mad, sad, scared or in need of being held. We are her sole source of everything right now, and she has no fear of us disappointing her or failing to meet her needs. She is completely vulnerable with us and completely trusting.

As I gave thanks for the privilege of getting to meet her needs, I realized that my heavenly Father wants to do the same for me. However, unlike Chloe, I rarely approach Him in full vulnerability. Like Adam and Eve, I try to conceal my nakedness from Him, fearing His response because of my insecurity. How foolish that seems when I think about how I, an imperfect and flawed person, love my daughter! There is nothing she could do that would cause me to turn away from her or to love her less. Yet I often approach God with those fears in the back of my mind. Whereas Chloe rests in our love and depends on it, I attempt to earn God’s grace through my “good” works and dutiful service. I pray that I may learn to come before Him without fear and in full dependence. I pray that I may stand in His grace and love and feel His sheer delight in me. He is good, so much better at love than me and I can stand before him unashamed.